July 16, 2005

Holy Cow!!! Ok, so I am here-oh my god is about all I have to say. I am trying to figure out how to start writing but I don't know how. I am in shock so I can't write but I need to. I know it is my fist night and I'm expected to be overwhelmed but that's an understatement. I am lying under a mosquito net in a tin shack-there is no electricity-I can't understand a thing that is said to me-I peed all over my food and I have never been looked at so much in my life. It isn't even 9 and I already called it a night simply because I had no idea what else to do. Men started coming over and I didn't feel comfortable being alone so I managed my risks and just said I tired. I have no idea who lives here. There are so many kids. This is truly going to be the hardest thing EVER. I guess Kelly already went home. Men do nothing while women scurry around every where. The walls don't touch the ceiling. I took my first bucket shower. Oh my god, if any of my friends could see me now. Be strong. It is not a house but a shanty. I really can't take it all in, I definitely will write a lot.